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“Paint the World in My Blood.”

By Bes Zain on May 13, 2009 in Personal 4 Comments

BesZ Fall. Paint the world in my blood. by Bes Zain - Night Series - 3rd

Here, I am,
falling like a fallen page,
Where, I am,
thinking inside this modern cage,

This, is my,
world of dreams and real fantasy.
This, is how,
my world is full of reality.

But, I don’t see,
how I can think of me,
when I am here,
asking my shadow “what do I feel?”

The world is too bright,
tone it a bit down for me to see,
the world is so dark,
paint it up for me to feel.

So take my breath,
take it and help it help me heal,
and paint the world,
in my blood so I can finally see.

“Pain the world in my blood.” 3rd in Night Series. In Pleasant Hill, California. May 8th, 1:12am. On TwitPic.com/BesZ. On Twitter.com/BesZ. On Flickr

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“Realization.”

By Bes Zain on May 10, 2009 in Personal 3 Comments

Realization - by Bes Zain - Night Series

Is this life? Maybe it is.
What is my life? The meaning I miss.
All these thoughts. Those may be it.
All those thoughts. These maybe it.

Time to realize? I do not know.
What to realize? I really want to know.
Blame me for everything. I think I know.
Do not care about me. Even my shadow knows.

Why am I thinking. What to think about me?
Why am I realizing. Anything to wonder about me?
Is this thinking? A process to be free?
Or is it realizing, a process to be me?

Realize in the night. Thoughts are everything?
Thoughts are finishing me off. Thoughts are the only thing?
Do I need thoughts? Then, am I still alive?
Are thoughts a way to finish off thoughts to know I’m still alive?

During the day, always a listening robot.
During the night, always an ignored trot.
During the day, hiding and waiting for it to finalize.
For the night, to start to think. To start to realize.

“Realization.” 2nd in Night Series. In Pleasant Hill, California. May 8th, 1:11am.

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“Thoughts.”

By Bes Zain on May 8, 2009 in Personal 3 Comments

Thoughts. Bes Zain. Night.

Thoughts. They just start.
Where. Where do I start.
Sit. Sit and think.
Think. Think about the thoughts.

Why is that. Is that even there.
Why did she. Is she even here.
Why am I. Am I even here.
Why does it. Is it even there.

Relax. Just close your eyes.
Think. The thoughts in your eyes.
Senses. Think without senses.
Try. Jump the thought fences.

Think. Think of it all.
Balance. Try to balance your fall.
Why. Try to find sense in it all.
Think. Think of it all.

“Thoughts.” 1st in Night Series. In Pleasant Hill, California. May 8th, 1:15am.

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